Live your life to the fullest!
This should be my motto from now on. I cheated to the Death once again.
Sounds pathetic, I know. But tonight I saw my life as in a movie when suddenly lost my ability to breath. And you know what? It was terrifying.
There was a time when I wanted to end my life and nothing seemed important enough to make me want to live. I pity those times, now realizing that the life of everyone is important, me including.
Sometimes, when I’m busy and tired, I think a lot about why I’m here in the world. Sometimes I find a clear point, sometimes I don’t. And when I don’t, I think of multiple ways to end everything. But except the only time few years ago, I never found the courage to actually end it all.
Karma is a bitch, they say. And they are probably right. This right moment when I stopped breathing was scary. I now rethink again and again and thank myself for finding the strength to go outside looking for air. I thank myself for finding composure, for the fact that I kept fighting. And for the fact that I started breathing again. And I’ll keep fighting!
But in case… in case of not waking up tomorrow… know I love you all! And I did my best…