Carpe Noctem

Carpe Noctem #1

Bonum vesperam! Good evening!~

It is yet another night that I am awake and writing. And since I’ve started having some issues with naming articles, here comes “Carpe Noctem” series – posts, written during the night. In a direct translation from Latin that would say “Seize the Night”, opposite of the famous “Carpe Diem”.

Today I came to the realization that at this moment I have nobody to talk to. People are busy with their own life, my mom prefers to not care and if what I want to share isn’t interesting to her, then she doesn’t even bother to listen and apparently, I don’t have a partner. So here I am, yet again stuck in the moment, having no idea why I’m on this world.

People seems to like pick on my weight and tell me I’m fat. And if only I get to loose weight, then everything will be better and people will like me more. One thing that needs to be made clear is that I am not a people pleaser. I do not care what they think. But when it’s always coming from close people, it just hurts a lot more. I don’t want to be judged by what I look like, but by what kind of person I am and it seems that this is very difficult.

It is probably time to stop talking and go back to my introverted self. Rant over.


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